How was your summer?

Been a bit guys! I was enjoying my summer too much :)
How was your summer?
I myself went to the beach more then I ever have. And I wore a freaking bathing suit more this summer then I have in omg years...years!! No one pointed or whispered behind my back. But honestly if they were I didn't notice I was having too much fun with my kid! I wore shorts! I haven't worn shorts in 20 years! I now have two pair!
This summer I drank and ate what I wanted, when I wanted. Guess what? I loved it haha! I also decided that I for myself would like to get rid of some of this weight. I will tell you why.
It is not because society expects me to want too. Its not because I want to wear certain things. Its not because I'm depressed. I already don't give a shit want society thinks and I wear exactly what I want too. ( well except for bright colored skinny jeans) I'm doing it for life. Life.
I realized with all the activities and fun I was having with my family I couldn't keep up. I ran out of breath far too quickly playing with my daughter. I got tired and lazy on trails and adventures. I didn't feel comfortable on certain rides I went on with her at the exhibition. I had to ask my husband and daughter to slow down far too many times for my liking. AND as much as I have conquered many fears this summer I totally hit realization and feel like shit for other things. So here comes a lifestyle change.
A lot has changed for me these past couple months. One being my job. I now work for a new company and I am working from home. I enjoy it a lot! :) At first I didn't know how I'd be because I am very social but so far it is the best decision I have ever made! I enjoy what I do. I am treated well. Here's some major plus sides to working from home and trying to be healthy.
No more frigging potlucks! First of all I myself think they are gross. Unless it is store bought or coming from someone you know well... don't touch that shit. You don't know who is tasting it and using the same utensils for stirring. You don't know who doesn't wash their damn hands. And you don't know if they spit in it or if they picked there nose and rubbed it all over the food. Potlucks should only be with close friends and family.
No more cafe. No more McDonald's across the street. No more quick drives to fast food places!
I have all healthy food in my house for me during the day. With meal prep Mondays it makes it easy!
I will never be skinny. I was skinny till like maybe age of 7. I don't wish to be skinny. Want to know my goal?!? 50pds in one year. Believe me... me losing 50pds will not make me skinny.But I could probably be more fun with my daughter. 50pds from when I started is 4 pounds monthly. I will not be doing any quick fixes or fads. Been there, done that... more than once and I always gain back. I will prove that a healthy lifestyle is all you need. Eat well, exercise. Ill still totally have my pizza and chips once and awhile. I will never deprive myself of anything.. that would be a disaster!
Anyways I hope you all had a fantastic summer! Fall is here and its boots and sweater season ♥♥♥

Be True
Be You
Be Confident

Julie ♥

Ladies Please Stop!!

Hey hey!!!
So this is a little rant on what us ladies do to each other. We put each other down all the time... could be behind their back or in front of their face. Its not OK either way!

First stop frigging comparing yourself to someone else. Everyone is different in every way. Don't think she's better because she has bigger boobs and don't think you are better because you have a flatter stomach. I say this to my 5 year old all the time "if everyone was the same how boring would that be" Comparing is not worth it.. Embrace what you got and compliment what they have.

Stop bullying each other. Girls are the worse.. I know this because I am one. And I won't lie I have said things before, when I was self conscious. We are in a world now where its so easy to pick one another apart. Imagine a world where we bring each other up. Could u imagine if we didn't judge girls on clothing,style, makeup, hair, body ???? Everyone does it but we really shouldn't. Everyone also knows what its like to be judged and how bad it sucks. Females have enough shit to look at online, in magazine and on TV... we really need to compliment each other. A compliment will go a lot further then an insult. Stop the whispers. Stop the chats with your girlfriends. Stop the pointing. Its sad to think that its so easy talking about how much that girl gained weight but fuck if something was said about your own body or clothing you'd be a couple things.. hurt, upset, no confidence. In my opinion the more you talk about others the more you are unhappy with yourself. So become a better person, love yourself and you will love everyone else.

I remember a time when I hung out with more guys than girls. Way less drama and I had way more confidence (even though my confidence sucked then.. it was better lol) How absolutely sad is that! Now mind you these guys cared more about where they were going to skate next then what I was wearing but still...  How many girls say they hate girls.. they hate hanging out with girls, they would much rather hang out with guys?? Its so sad. Girls are so much fun. I am so happy to have so many girlfriends that I absolutely love to hang out with.

Anyways just a short little blog on a rant on what so many girls do and shouldn't!


Stay True
Stay You
Stay Confident

Julie ♥

Summer is coming!!!!

Hey hey the best few months of the year is just around the corner. Bbq's, beaches, camping, tanning, 4 wheeling, bonfires... complete freaking bliss!
Time to get the dresses, shorts, skirts, sandals, bathing suits and capris out!
Soooo many full figured ladies are too damn hot in summer because we feel we need to cover it all up. You don't! Feel free to put a cute dress on, a tank top and a bathing suit on. It is a very short period of time of sun and heat so soak it in and enjoy it. Do not feel you HAVE to cover up being a bigger lady. I don't know why society is such on the verge of making bigger girls feel like we don't belong or shouldn't be able to wear what everyone else is wearing in the summer. News flash.. there has been full figured people since the beginning of damn time!
Now I have a HUGE secret to tell you. I know exactly how to get a beach body like in 5 minutes. Ready.... you go to the beach...with your body ;) BAM mind blown right!!! Honestly there are so many bathing suits and cute little laced covers, I promise you if you look around you will find something you love and are comfortable in. For example I found a bathing suit top at Wal-Mart with a under wire for support, cheetah print...love it. Holds the ta ta's up and looks awesome with my little brown skirt bottom I have. It was only 20$... and that's how I like it ;). Don't feel so insecure at the beach or pool side in your swim wear. If people look let them but most won't. And for those that do its out of ignorance or jealousy so brush it off and enjoy your time with your friends, family or whoever you are there with!
Dresses are my favourite! I began my love for dresses about a year or so ago. I figured out what shape of dress is for me (A line) and now I rock them on a regular. Forever21 has really cute ones. You can shop online. Its a Canadian store. Shipping is super quick and prices are awesome. You really can't beat it. Old Navy is another place I love to go for dresses. Good thing is you can try them on there. Also there's an Old Navy almost everywhere so no issues taking stuff back if you need to.
Even though dresses are my fav clothing item for summer months I need to be careful when I'm wearing them. Work, great! Summer bbq at a friends or my place, great. Walking the Zoo for an hour or more, not great. Anywhere where there is a lot of walking period not great lol. I don't do the spanx or any of that so chafing happens because of my wonderful thighs! And if anyone can relate you understand completely how uncomfortable that is. Walk a little spread wiggle, move on. Made that mistake a few times and it won't happen again! If I feel like I really want to wear a dress on a walking day Ill throw some black tights on.
Sandals. Love sandals. Anyone who knows me knows how much I hate socks! You can get such cute sandals. I love flats and wedges the most myself. With that being said..if you are going to wear sandals..girl please paint those damn toes. Painting my toes is a whole damn task. My belly is a tad round and big and my arms a little short so moving around to get to every toe is like a damn work out with a couple breaks for breathers. But hey I make sure my toes are painted. If I am doing it you can too!
Ill be buying my first pair of shorts this year since like god... I don't remember ever buying shorts for myself ever. Once I buy them I will let you know how it goes. I would love to find a cute ripped jean short. The thing with shorts they ride up, at least they always did whenever I tried to wear them. The annoying things right!
Tanks!!! I love tanks. I got big arms but that will never stop me from wearing cute tank tops and it shouldn't stop you either. There are so many different styles out there and colors and patterns. You can layer them which I love to do or not whatever. And who doesn't want some color on their arms and chest!?!?! That's right! So go find some cute tanks and rock them and love them!!
Remember once you start loving yourself and realizing you are sexy and beautiful then nothing and no one else matters. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Love yourself first then everything else will fall into place. This I can promise you!

Stay you
Stay true
Stay confident


Julie ♥

I Hope..

I hope you don't look back with regret
I hope you did everything you wanted
I hope you laughed until you cried... or peed your pants
I hope you cried less in life then you laughed
I hope you danced to your favorite songs
I hope you sang loudly even though you're not a great singer
I hope you put that lipstick on
I hope you found your favorite shade of lipstick
I hope you dressed up in a fancy dress
I hope you rocked those faded ripped jeans
I hope you fell in love more than once
I hope you had your heart broken at least once
I hope you had that piece of cake
I hope you had that "ugly cry" night in bed with a sappy movie and a thing of ice cream
I hope that store had your favorite ice cream
I hope you kissed a perfect stranger
I hope people showed you respect and if they didn't you demanded it
I hope you had friends you could be silly with
I hope you explored
I hope you felt unconditional love
I hope you ate junk food in your friends living room with a group of girls wrapped up in blankets watching episodes of Sex and the City.
I hope your heart skipped a beat for that guy
I hope you smiled
And that you are still smiling
I hope you forgave, forgot and moved on
I hope you apologized
I hope you were confident
I hope you were true to what you believed
I hope you stood up for yourself
I hope you found a friend to tell all your secrets too
I hope you had dance parties in the basement, kitchen, deck or garage
I hope your friends trust you
I hope you went to the beach
I hope you enjoyed the little things
I hope you didn't live a lie
I hope you were happy
I hope you lived
I hope you went on road trips with you girl friends and on the way home from the crazy weekend you all had just enough life left to give er to that awesome bar song in the car... at least twice.
I hope you felt sexy
I hope you were a Killer Queen
I hope you felt every emotion
I hope when hearing at least 1-2 songs it brings back major memories and all you can do is laugh/smile
I hope you had a time of just drinking, partying... being young
I hope you spent quality time with loved ones
I hope you played hard but not too hard that it fucked up your life
I hope you felt wanted
I hope you had the time of your life

Julie ♥
Stay you
Stay true
Stay confident

P.S. Cleanse going well, in case anyone was wondering. Also booked my appt for my first big piece tattoo and sooo excited!!!

What I know at 30

Cannot make everyone happy- Not everyone will be happy with your choices. That's okay! If you are happy and not hurting anyone then don't worry about it. Someone is always going to have something to say. Shake it off and move on. Just keep smiling.

I Will NEVER look like I did at 20- Oh my early 20's... pleasantly plump! Ass round and sitting up nicely. Boobs that exact same as my ass. I won't have that body again..ever. It's ok. I've enjoyed more pizza then I should have these past 10 years ;) I had a daughter, carried for 9 months in this body. Things will never sit up like they did but I had 10 + years of good times. I have stretch marks, which I never tried taking away with creams. They are my markings of weight gain,weight loss and pregnancy. They are what I call my "journey marks." All of this I am proud of and embrace. I am 30, not 20. I will not wish or fantasize about looking like the 20 year old me. I will be the most beautiful, sexy and fabulous 30 year old I can be.

I can say No- Kinda going back to "making people happy"... if I have no time or I just don't want to do something.. I FINALLY learned that I can say no. The worse situation is doing something you don't want or being somewhere you don't want to be. It's okay to say "no." And you don't need excuses or a huge explanation. It's simple. I went out of my way far too many times for people who just turned around and pretty much shit on me. I say no a lot more often than I use too and I'm a lot less stressed with less anxiety.

Keeping Up- I do not need to "keep up" with the "Jones'." I do not feel the need to keep up with friends or family. I do not need equal to what they have nor do I need better. I hope to hell all my friends know I would never expect that from them either. We are a blue collared family. We live simple. We enjoy the simple things in life. If I tried to keep up with everyone we'd be broke, pissed and tired. I do not judge people for what they have or don't have, I'd like to be around those who do the same. For those who needed me to "keep up" are no longer around and that I am grateful for.

I will no longer wait- From since I can remember I was always waiting. Waiting to drop 10-20-30 pounds before buying that outfit, going on that trip or wearing a bathing suit. I will no longer wait. Life is too short to put it on hold. I refuse to lose weight before buying a new outfit. I will be at the beach with my daughter... in a bathing suit. I will go on trips and attend anything I want. My weight does not define me. My life and your life is too short to wait any longer.

I don't care- You don't like me, don't be around me. Don't like how I parent my child, you are not her parent. You don't like me wearing that cause you can see where my roll is, don't look. You don't like my relationship with my husband, worry about yours. Don't like my car, job, home, hair, friends, my family... I don't  care. I am living my life the way I want too. If you lived your life the way everyone else wanted you too, how boring. How sad. What kind of life is that for you?

Moisturize- Take care of your skin. Take your makeup off before bed. Use sunscreen. Moisturize!

Friends- A lot went, some stayed. I have a great group of friends that I love and trust and am completely comfortable around. I don't have a bunch of friends but the ones I have are all I need. Smaller group, less drama. Drama sucks. Do I feel the need to make new friends? No. But I welcome anyone with open arms. We will see if they are around in 5 years. I love people. I am a people person, but not everyone is my friend. I learned through the years not to trust so easily.

Family comes first- My daughter will get what she needs before my husband and I get what we "want." I will miss out on late nights with friends because I need to be up early in the am with my 5 year old. Hang overs last a lot longer than a few hours now. My husband is my best friend. I would pick a night of chats and a date with him then anything else. He is at the end of the day, the one who is there for me no matter what. I would drop anything for these two people. I will also fight, protect and defend them at any time. My family will always come first.

I am Good Enough- I'm good enough for any person, any clothing line, any job and any event. I am good enough for anything. So are you!


Stay true
Stay you
Stay confident

Julie  ♥♥♥

Life Style

I, as you already know, am quite confident and happy in my own skin. With that being said it doesn't mean I wouldn't like to drop a few pounds. Starting tomorrow I am doing a three week cleanse. Do not get this confused with a detox. I need to eat and on this cleanse I eat 5-6 times a day. Its just a very planned out meal. My husband is actually joining in and doing it with me which will make it so much easier!!!  So yup Ill weigh myself tomorrow and then again every monday morning. Not sure what I would like to do after the cleanse, thats something for me to think about.
I have been on every diet going let me tell ya! I've lost lots and put it back on, this happened more then once in my life. For something to stick and work it needs to be a life style that you can do. Hopefully its something I figure out after this 3 weeks.
I am not looking to quickly lose a bunch of weight, quick fixes last like the ice cream in your fridge haha. I am also not looking to lose a BUNCH of weight. I would like to see 30-40 pounds come off gradually. Any more is a bonus.
Its not easy changing your life style. Some say it is but I feel they are the ones who ever had to change much. Its a difficult journey. Summer is coming... bbq's, drinks, camping... all that fun stuff. I refuse to stop enjoying what I love to lose weight. Although I love ice cream but that def isn't an everyday treat nor will it be on this journey of dropping pounds.
Im giving myself goals and rewards. I am not going to reward myself with food. I love tattoos and would love to be completely covered in art. My first 20 pds Im getting my shoulder cap tattoo! * I got my "tattoo jar" started haha*
I will not stress about losing weight or stress if what I see on the scale is not the loss I wanted.  I may stress if its taking too long to get the tattoo I want ;)
Self Image... what do you feel good in? How do you like your hair? Do you like to wear makeup? Do you dress up or down? Do you love/hate tattoos? Do you hate/love piercings? Whatever your answer is is what you need to do. Figure out you then it will all fall into place. Once you are completely happy with the image you flaunt you will no longer care what those think of it. Its yours and you need and should own it!

Stay true
Stay you
Stay confident

♥Julie


P.S. totally pumped got a bathing suit top that actually has wire support for the tatas! Huge deal ... HUGE! and I found this along walmart for 22$. Cheetah print! And Old Navy has good sales on now!!!!! Got some good summer stuff. Get down there before it is all taken over!

Educate the Ignorant

Ignorance is the most brutal trait in the world! Unfortunately it is constantly all around us. Ignorance is one of my most hated things. What people think the plus size life is all about is ridiculous. I am here to educate those closed minded individuals.

We are not all lazy: No I don't jog around my community but I also don't see every average to small sized person doing it either. My house is cleaned. I attend Zumba. I play with my child. In warmer weather I like walks, love going to the beach, I love swimming. I'm usually the first on the dance floor and the last one standing there at the end of the night. Anyone can be lazy...any shape, any size, stop pointing the fingers at us.

I don't eat junk a lot: Surprise!!! It is very uncommon that my home has chocolate, chips and junk food in the cupboards. I do not eat fast food on a regular basis, MAYBE once a month and a lot of times its subway. I do not like juice or regular pop. Please stop assuming you know what goes into my body!

We have a great sex life: Theres no need to go on with this topic. I cannot believe people think that because we got some fat we don't have fun in the bed. All I will say is the girl at the sex shop told me once that its hard to keep the plus sizes in, they are the best sellers! ;)

Our health is not horrible: Just an FYI I had more damn blood work the past 2 years for other things and they all came back in perfect health.

We do not smell bad: OMF! We have showers and baths in our homes also. We buy soaps and shampoos. We have our fav perfume. If someone smells bad it has nothing to do with size, that some personnel shit they need to take care of

We are not depressed: Its the same as everyone else. Some people are just depressed, some are not. I know for me, I am totally happy and in love with life. I also know for me that I stay away from ignorant assholes. Everyone wishes for something, doesn't mean they are depressed. PLEASE  stop feeling bad for us. I don't feel bad for you not going for that slice of pizza, don't feel bad for us when we do!

Sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me: Yes they do! Names kill self esteem, names kill confidence. Stop being a bully. Bring people up in life. Give people something to smile about. Why do you want to be the reason that kid goes home everyday and cries? Why would you want to be that person that make that girl feel worthless because shes over weight? STOP! Us plus size ladies get enough bull shit from the top selling magazines!

Do not keep ignorant people in your life! It is just bringing you down. It doesn't matter their title. Family, co-worker, and old friend, walk away from them! It is not up to you to please the world. Its up to you for you to be in a world you love. So make it lovely!



Got some new stuff today! Pink lipstick, lovin it! And a new nail polish!

Stay you
Stay true
Stay confident

Julie ♥